I don't even know what's going on (possible? loss mentioned)

OneSmallStep

We are having the weirdest miscarriage ever and I was wondering if anyone else has ever gone through this or known someone who has and what ended up happening? I'm not sure who read my post, on the other side, about our loss on Friday so I'm just going to put all of the information here.

First off, it all started on Friday night, we were on our way home from vacation and decided to stop in to see a drive-in movie about two hours away from us. While looking for a place that had WiFi so I could finish up my schoolwork, DW all of a sudden felt a gush of blood like af had started. We freaked out and found the closest hospital. We spent about 4 hours at the ER, early on they said her cervix was closed. Then at the end we found out the u/s had found nothing and the HCG was only 30. She said we could be off on our dates, we said we def weren't. She said well maybe, and then we explained we had used a donor and know when we insemmed. She said oh, well I'm sorry it's probably a miscarriage. At this point DW had not passed any clots, just lots of bright red blood. As a side note this conversation led to us passing on information about NW to the nurse who wants to be a SMBC and had no clue it was so easy/not as expensive as she thought!

So anyways, on Friday night when we got home DW went to the bathroom and passed a clot. We thought for sure after she passed it, that it had to be everything. Afterall the baby was only supposed to be the size of an appleseed. But then on Saturday she was still passing clots. So we thought okay and then on Sunday she wasn't passing them so it must be just about done.

On Monday we go in for a HCG test because the ER doc had said to get it checked with our MW to see what happens. We expected it to be going down, but nope we find out on Tues that her hcg levels went up. They were at 59, which would mean doubling at 72 hours instead of 48. So then on Weds she had a bunch of crazy emotions hot/cold flashes so we figured it must be her levels dropping. Then on Thursday she was nauseous (so I was like maybe!) but then she passed a, sorry tmi, small dark red stringier clot that she said wasn't a normal AF type clot.

So we figured maybe when we went in on Monday because she was still in the process, maybe that's why her numbers doubled so on Thursday we went back in for a HCG draw and we just got the call back and she has almost doubled again! It's at 105. So now we are waiting on the MW to call back with what we are doing, the one who called said we'd probably be doing an u/s.

And of course my brain keeps trying to be optimistic even though logically I know there's not much chance. Ugh... the worst part of all of this is the up/down rollercoaster of glimmers of hope that are completely unrealistic and irrational. I feel like this is the longest miscarriage and I just wish that if it's a mc that it would happen and if it's not that we would see something on the u/s...

All my Google researching has come back with possibilities of a mc or of a healthy baby, so I don't even know what to think anymore.

Has anyone else gone through something like this? Are we crazy to want to hope that maybe it was a twin and there's a possibility of a healthy baby in there? Lil D's numbers were on the low end I think, but she didn't bleed or pass any thing with him so I dunno...

I'm sorry it's so long to those that have read it all thanks... I'm just completely and utterly confused right now!

K&H

Unfortunately, it sounds like it could be a molar pregnancy. I would call your doc right away.
I'm so sorry. What a roller coaster.

old mama

I would say a rollercoaster. Those increasing levels do sound encouraging though. I hope you get good news as time goes by.

scorpiogrl7

Have they checked for an ectopic? When I was having my early loss, after stopping the meds and waiting to bleed, my HCG increased a bit (from 155 to 175) and they were concerned about a possible ectopic (it wasn't... just took a while for the progesterone to get out of my system).

I think you should have an ultrasound to check for an ectopic.

I do still hope thataybe it was a vanishing twin, though.

Hugs to you and DW.

OneSmallStep

K&h, she doesn't have any of the symtpoms of a molar though. I mean no heart speeding up or sweating, no grape like clots, no excessive bleeding, etc, no cramping beyond slight cramps once in a while over the weekend.

Scorpiogirl we thought maybe an ectopic, but at the er they said they checked for that and didn't see it.

We're still waitkng to hear back, they would have just finished their lunch break and we are thinking about calling back.

Katydid

If it is bad news I am sorry, but I hope it is not. I had an US around the same time as you guys did and they saw nothing. At 6+ weeks they saw a sac, but no baby. I also had bleeding at about six weeks for two days and thought that I was having a MC. I also had intermittent AF type cramps through the first trimester. The numbers are low, but they are doubling. I wouldn't want to give false hope, but I would say there is still a chance. Wishing you guys the best...

OneSmallStep

We talked to tge mw, she wants to wait until Mon for an u/s. She thinks the baby may have been too small and that's why they couldn't see it at the ER and that dw mc'd a twin. I want so badly to be hopeful but I'm also so very afraid that it'll end badly. I just don't know what to think at this point and I am praying for a miracle!

JayJay

I have no experience to offer, but I wanted to say I wish you the best. I hope it was a vanishing twin and that you will have good news on Monday.

EMG_REL

I'm thinking about you guys and hoping for the best!

graceinfl

As always, thinking of you both and a positive outcome.

beyondobsessed

Thinking of you guys, and hoping you get some good news.

annerbones

After my miscarriage I thought I was going crazy, I swore I was still pregnant. It took me until after my due date to be okay with it and process the early loss. I hope this turns out well for you guys.

OneSmallStep

annerbones, I'm sorry that happened with you. We were actually feeling "okay" (well as okay as we could be) about the mc until we found out on Tuesday that her numbers were doubling. Even then, on Weds we figured okay well by tomorrow (Thursday) I'm sure the numbers will be going down, but then we found out they had doubled again. It could still be that the numbers went up before the mc was done and they are going to go back down again. We are trying to remain hopeful because trying not to remain hopeful just leaves us feeling crazy because we want to be hopeful. But we also know that there is a much higher likelihood that this will end up being a mc that is just long drawn out.

jamie.pfiester

What your describing is just like what happened with my son! I had the same thing and came to find out that I was carrying twins and mc the twin. My son is now a healthy happy year old. Not trying to get you hopes up but I thought id share my experience with you!

Sunshine4Baby

With Beck my numbers didn't double and they started to prepare me for a loss, 2 days later they had doubled and kept doubling and beck is here. They said they believed I had a vanishing twin that didnt fully implant even tho it had started to and that's why my numbers didn't increase much and that Beck just took a bit to catch up ! I did not have any bleeding but that most likely was because i was on progesterone , i am really hoping for good news for you guys !!

MNmommas

What a long weekend that makes for - but I hope you get great news on Monday!

allthingslucky

I have no advice, but I really hope it's good news! Fingers crossed for you!

A&J

Thinking of you guys. I too don't want to offer any false hopes, but do want to share that with our daughter right around weeks 5-7 I experienced heavy bright red bleeding off and on and at one point passed a fairly large clot that made me certain that I was having a miscarriage. My midwife had my betas drawn, progesterone, and then we had a vaginal ultrasound right at 7 weeks. In the end all worked out, but we still don't know why I was bleeding. Again, I am hoping for the very best for you and your family.

preciousgift

I don't know... but this must be stressful.. But, I just have a good feeling for you... that it is a vanishing twin. I hope this weekend goes fast, so you can get some answers on Monday! Prayers for all of you!

Flowergirl

You know I'm thinking of you and hoping for the very best!

OneSmallStep

Thanks everyone! Especially for the stories that ended well... we are hoping and praying. It doesn't help that DW has started feeling uber tired. I'm not sure if its because she is still pregnant or if its because we want her to be so badly that her body is faking us out. Monday really needs to get here already. I just hope that the scheduling for the u/s isn't going to make us wait past Monday to find out!!

babybaby

thinking of you today.

irisgrace61

thinking about you guys today

jenandlori

Thinking about you today

OneSmallStep

Thanks everyone. Unfortunately today ended up being a very horrible day. My cat of 10 years had to be put to sleep, and we found out that there was nothing on the ultrasound. The plus side is there was nothing, not even left over cells so no d&c needed and I'm thinking maybe the last two ups were just the end of the pregnancy. Tomorrow I'm sure we'll find out today's blood draw was going down. Thanks for all the thoughts and well wishes... just hoping we get back to zero soon so we can try again. Thanks again

K&H

I'm so sorry. What a horrible day indeed.

shauna2710

I'm so sorry you had such a terrible day. I'm glad you both have each other and seem to be a very supportive couple.

JayJay

I am so so sorry you had to handle not one, but two losses today. There are really no words to make it better, but luckily time makes all things better. It does t feel like it now but it does. Take care of each other and allow yourselves to grieve. HUGS to you all!

aplusa

I am so sorry, OSS! This must be a heartbreaking day for you all. Big hugs.

old mama

I am sorry. I was hoping by some miracle...I hope you try again when you are ready and this time it sticks. I am sorry too about your cat. I'm a huge cat lover and I have had to do that.

irisgrace61

so so sorry