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Need advice from moms who take anti-anxiety meds
Kari
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I'm not sure whether or not I should be on meds, so I'm looking for some advice. Feel free to private message me if you prefer.
Before kids, I was about the most even-keeled person you'd meet. I'd raise my voice once in a great while (maybe a few times a year with an unruly class to get them in order) but never had any real highs or lows. Nowadays I see a different personality in response to my kids' needs. When Justin is on his fifth tantrum in a row, I either respond by trying to tune him out or by yelling at him, slamming doors so hard the clock fell off the wall and broke, taking whatever is "bothering" Justin and causing his tantrum (like a toy) and throwing it hard enough to break it, or spanking. All of these except the tuning out seem to be knee-jerk responses and not thought-out responses. It's almost like I've slammed the door or thrown his toy or spanked before I even think about doing it. I can only imagine what kind of lesson I'm teaching my kids. Oh, and I've started swearing at the kids lately, too. I never did that before.
I did a meet & greet with a new nurse practitioner on Monday and she asked about my anxiety levels. I jokingly said, "Well, it sure isn't what it was before two kids!" She didn't press for more information and I didn't offer any. Since then, though, I got to wondering if this is normal. At the same time, though, I'm nervous about going on any medication that might alter my responses in a more negative way. Do anti-anxiety meds take the edge off so I don't yell or swear around the kids, or is there any chance I would still respond the same way but not care as much about what I'm doing around the kids? Juliet has moved into my bed this past week, so I'm concerned about any way they may make me less aware that she's in bed with me. Any advice would be appreciated!
Before kids, I was about the most even-keeled person you'd meet. I'd raise my voice once in a great while (maybe a few times a year with an unruly class to get them in order) but never had any real highs or lows. Nowadays I see a different personality in response to my kids' needs. When Justin is on his fifth tantrum in a row, I either respond by trying to tune him out or by yelling at him, slamming doors so hard the clock fell off the wall and broke, taking whatever is "bothering" Justin and causing his tantrum (like a toy) and throwing it hard enough to break it, or spanking. All of these except the tuning out seem to be knee-jerk responses and not thought-out responses. It's almost like I've slammed the door or thrown his toy or spanked before I even think about doing it. I can only imagine what kind of lesson I'm teaching my kids. Oh, and I've started swearing at the kids lately, too. I never did that before.
I did a meet & greet with a new nurse practitioner on Monday and she asked about my anxiety levels. I jokingly said, "Well, it sure isn't what it was before two kids!" She didn't press for more information and I didn't offer any. Since then, though, I got to wondering if this is normal. At the same time, though, I'm nervous about going on any medication that might alter my responses in a more negative way. Do anti-anxiety meds take the edge off so I don't yell or swear around the kids, or is there any chance I would still respond the same way but not care as much about what I'm doing around the kids? Juliet has moved into my bed this past week, so I'm concerned about any way they may make me less aware that she's in bed with me. Any advice would be appreciated!
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Wellbutrin is a nice one that doesn't have much in the way of side effects. Also, trying to get exercise outside in the sun every day has been shown to be just as effective as medication.
I recently read an article that mentioned how our reactions are all about us and not what the kids are doing, and that it can be helpful to figure out exactly what we're feeling behind the anger or frustration. That has helped me a bit. It's also been helpful for me to stop things before I'm at the breaking point - for example, I used to let them crawl on me until I completely lost it, but after a while, I became better able to identify earlier that I was getting frustrated and change things so they didn't get a bad reaction from me.
And as Shanny said, I am the adult. It's my responsibility to model control of emotions so that they can learn to control their own.
I have more thoughts on this but I'm rushing out the door. Just wanted to quickly say I TOTALLY get it and that sometimes, meds can help you bridge the gap and allow you to figure out other things that will work for you.
I know you are looking for med info. I don't have info on that other than it was a really rough road for my mom trying to figure out her correct meds when I was a child. I would suggest looking at more natural things such as what Shanny suggest hormone imbalances, vitamin deficincies, etc. I'd suggest checking out this site on natural treatments: http://www.latitudes.org/ You might even want to give the director a call and feel free to tell her that I gave you the suggestion of contacting her. She'll know who I am as we talk often.
I feel for you as Aiden has really been pushing my buttons lately. Yesterday, he told me I was in a bad mood. He was right, but I was in a bad mood because he was being very defiant. He did the opposite of everything I told him to do or not to do. In fact I was so frustrated with the way he acted yesterday that last night after bedtime I ordered some positive parenting books on Amazon. I ordered the kindle version of Positive Discipline for Preschool Children and read it until 2 AM! The one thing that it really suggests is giving them choices such as do you want to put your shirt or pants on first...etc.
I'm really bad at just doing things for Aiden and not letting him help. So I'm working on that because find that if I let him help things go much better. Does Justin like to help you with things? For example this morning Aiden wanted a fried egg and he wanted it right then. I knew it would take a bit to fix, so I asked him if he wanted to help unload the dishwasher. Sure enough, he did. So I gave him the silverware and told him to match them up to put them away. He has a blast, did a great job, and was well behaved. All while I was able to unload the whole dishwasher, load it back up, and have the egg ready by the time he finished. Now if I didn't have him help with something like that he probably would have been climbing my counters, getting himself another snack, and winning for the egg right now...etc. Today has been a much better day just by letting him have choices and having him help me. I haven't lost my patience yet either.
I've got to admit that I'm ready to go back to work. I've loved being at home with Aiden, but it's time for me to get that break during the day. It must be great to be a stay at home, but man do they work hard. I don't know how they do it 24/7 for 365 days a year. I would think it would be very stressfull at times. So those of you that stay at home with your kids deserve a pat on the back. I think you work so much harder than I do while I'm at work and my work can be challenging with kids that have special needs. It takes a lot of hard work and patience to be at home with your kid/kids 24/7.
Carolyn
It may take a couple medications to find one that works best for you. And that's where a Dr. can help you. For me, it was 40-60 mg of Prozac. I also used to have panic attacks and when I would I took Atavan. Prozac didn't have any weird side effects for me, it just helped me not be so anxious and worry all the time. Atavan is a definite sedative, though, and made me zone out. I only took that when I would really panic tho.
If you're breastfeeding, that may alter what you should/ should not take. I would suggest talk to your Dr. now. Don't feel ashamed about it. Maybe you'll decide medication isn't for you, but maybe it can really help you. If you just don't like it, you can stop taking it. It's going to be okay, and no matter what, you're a great mom!
Anyway, just wanted to throw it out there again that there may be other options besides anti-anxiety/depression meds. I hope you've talked to someone and made a plan