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One of the hardest things
Shanny
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Something you don't think of when you are weighing what will likely be difficult situations when you are the only parent of an older child: being able to discuss important things with other adults without your child being near by.
This week I got a call from the head of Kate's school. She and her BFF at school are going through a rough patch so she called me to discuss. At the end if the conversation she said that Kate's teacher was going to call me herself but the director knew that wouldn't be a good idea since Kate would be around while I had that conversation.
Yesterday Kate's school was closed due to power being out all over Dallas including her school. So she was at work with me when I got a call from my mother that her brother had died. He hung himself. The whole night was spent trying to find a place away from her to talk on the phone to family. But obviously she knew something was wrong and just kept following me around . We won't travel back to NY because my mom doesn't want her to be around all the sadness. Obviously if I had a spouse I would have the option to leave her home and be with my mom for a few days.
Anyway, it's just really struck me this week that there is never really time for delicate adult conversation when an almost 6 year old is glued to your hip. Not something you really think about until it is upon you.
This week I got a call from the head of Kate's school. She and her BFF at school are going through a rough patch so she called me to discuss. At the end if the conversation she said that Kate's teacher was going to call me herself but the director knew that wouldn't be a good idea since Kate would be around while I had that conversation.
Yesterday Kate's school was closed due to power being out all over Dallas including her school. So she was at work with me when I got a call from my mother that her brother had died. He hung himself. The whole night was spent trying to find a place away from her to talk on the phone to family. But obviously she knew something was wrong and just kept following me around . We won't travel back to NY because my mom doesn't want her to be around all the sadness. Obviously if I had a spouse I would have the option to leave her home and be with my mom for a few days.
Anyway, it's just really struck me this week that there is never really time for delicate adult conversation when an almost 6 year old is glued to your hip. Not something you really think about until it is upon you.
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I don't know. Just some ideas. I suck at advice and I really just wanted to say I'm sorry.
I'm growing more and more aware of my niece, who is just five. We can't even spell anymore as she's sounding out words. Poor Kate! She knows something is up and she just wants to be there for you. Send her over here. I bet she'd make an excellent baby sitter for the boys.
Whatever you decide, your family will be glad to be together -- sooner or later.
I'm so, so sorry for your loss.
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I'm sorry for your loss.
Initially I told her he was sick and I was trying to get us tickets to go home. Then when my mom said not to come I told her he had already passed. Now she'll say things like "are you STILL sad?" "Well how long are you going to be sad for?" I'm doing well most of the time, save for when I'm on the phone. Sigh.
I just don't want her to hear certain words. Ever really. But definitely not at 5.
Yes, suicide is a whole different kind of grief. I'm very sorry that you and your family are going through this. I hope you get to have some closure (whatever that actually means...I'm not sure I believe in that anymore, just giving yourself time to heal).
If, and this is not likely, she gets some understanding of the choice he made, then you can go deeper and talk about sickness making it too hard to make good choices and causing too much pain that medicine couldn't help anymore (assuming this fits his situation). It's likely that she'll have more interest in how a young body could die than she will have in the actual moment of death.
I hope that you are able to be with family, whether it's now or next month, coming together when these things happen can be very healing. Our thoughts are with you.
TTC No. 2 since Aug. 2014; IVF #1 - Cxld; IVF #2 - BFN
TTC #2: since June 2016...
I know well the feeling of being torn and needing to be in too many places at once. My oldest landed herself in ER last week due to some poor choices. At 8pm I had to deal with the little one sobbing as I left her with the 13 year old and ran out the door. Then had to leave the 16 year old alone in ER at 2am because the younger two could not stay alone all night. And bounced back and forth for two days like this.
The good news in single parenting is that these situations are fleeting. They suck the life out of you while they're occurring and leave you feeling like a zombie going through the motions of your own life. But eventually things do return to normal. Hope you can get through this one and find some time for regeneration!